What is this feeling?

I have this feeling that I can not describe. Tears run down my face, submission seems necessary but what to? I am content with my life, really I am, even in the valley. I know that nursing school is somewhere in the future just don't know when or where. I know that if I can just continue to trust in God that it will all work for the good. But still, I am human...I have pain, disappointment, loneliness, happiness, joy, comfort. I find myself driving to chico and acting like Christ is sitting in my passenger seat... that leads to tears as I unload all that I am going through, anger, disappointment, curiosity of the future, which leads to submission, joy and belting out worship music with a stuffy nose, red eyes, and the most love, grace and mercy I could ever imagine. This happened today. Finding myself in the mist of God and not caring what lies around me.