No words for life sometimes!

A phone call. A single phone call can change someones life, a single choice can ruin another, and words can haunt your mind even when you say they wont. Today has been one of those days that you wonder if you answer the phone will it be another bad or sad story? Life is so fragile. Life is so precious of a gift that we take for granted so many times in our daily lives. It makes me come to a realization and humility that God is in control and we have to live life like today is our last. Like the moment is our last. The words spoken are our last.
By the grace of God we have the faith that we do to trust in Him and take life even more carefully then we do now. We can make a more thought out decision. We can think through words before we allow them to be said. We can focus on what God has for us and the faith that we can put in Him for knowing that in and through Him are all things. "There is no wisdom, no insight, no plan that can succeed against the Lord." Proverbs 21:30

So tell someone how you feel at that moment. Don't hold back words that you wish you could have said when you can say them to them right now. My life is bliss as I know it and I feel selfish for not enjoying it to the fullest when such sad things are happening all around us. Grasp life.

Start to Finish to Start again.

I am so happy to say that the Lord's plan was for me to pass this exit exam. I have a huge weight lifted off my shoulders and am so happy to be striving towards the finish line with the same amount of ambition as before. I just truly enjoy this picture I found online... The finish line is not an end to the life that we live but a new beginning of new and bigger races to be run. I am excited to see what God has in store for me and for my Fiance and I as a couple. I pray that we will be able to see the true finish line and have that as our focus and enjoy the finish lines and first pages of the new chapters. I am overjoyed and beyond humbled by the power and plan that God has for me.

Update about my Heart Lately!

So I have been so consumed with school lately that I haven't had the chance to write on my blog. I have an exit exam for my nursing school and I have been anxious, overwhelmed, emotional, you name it and I probably have felt the type of worry. I have been aware that it is a waste of my time and it builds nothing to worry, so all week I have been trying to rid the feelings of really what describe "a lack of faith". I have been on my knees literally all week praying for peace and to give my anxiety up and over to Him. Well my exam got moved out for another week, which is a blessing cause I see this week as an opportunity to sort of re-live this past week which I have been worrying and actually live with faith and knowing full well my position. I went to church this morning and was filled with such humility and repentance. I have been trying to deal with the surface appearance of my anxiety rather then seeing the root of it. I have been mowing the weeds on my lawn rather then trying to kill the weeds/heart ache that lies at the root. I was doubting God. I was doubting His ability to help me pass this exam. I don't know what lies ahead with this exit exam and really I just need to sit back and do all that I can to trust in the Lord. God has the ultimate plan and I need to be aware daily of the purpose of my life. Yes this exit exam is important, yes I still need to apply myself and give all that I have to prepare for this exam, BUT NO I don't need to try and carry the burden and the future on my shoulders; cause God has it all in His hands. The illustration was used today in church of parables about how the king left his people with blessings and came back to see what they have done with them. I related this to my situation. God has placed me in this Nursing school, God has carried me through this program- no doubt; why do I think that God is going to change? I am the one who is changing. I want to use this blessing of being in nursing school to His ultimate benefit. So I am going to invest in what He has placed me in and know full well that what God has for me in the end will be for the better of His plan and purpose not for my plan. I was humbled in the presence of God today in church. It felt so good to take communion and remind myself of the sovereignty of God. With that said- Studying is where I am heading to. God is good!