Joy of Life!

I love my life. I love the time that I get to spend by myself, learning about the different aspects of life that i truly enjoy. I enjoy making a mental list of the things that I hope to accomplish someday. As I see the simplest of things during my day. My accomplishments are not just physical, not just scholastically, but personal. I want to know who I am completely. I know that I want a Golden Retriever to take on walks, to take her to the park, and to watch her play with my children someday. I want to experience spontaneity, experience life to the fullest, and live a life that is full of charisma.

Utter Contentment!

"Be still and Know that I am God!" Declares the Lord. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight." If I could only be what God Instructs me to be. If I could set aside my emotions, my intentions, or my own agenda, then, then maybe life wouldn't be this overwhelming roller coaster. In Hebrews 12:7-13, hardships are defined to be a process of growth, of building character, and helps develop intimacy with the Lord. The truth that lies within that passage is that hardships are the core existence of Growth, of maturation, and of ultimate love and grace shown by God. god cares for us enough that he wants us to be challenged, wants us to be wanting to draw close to Him in every moment not just the hard times. I am grateful for this hard time. I am overwhelmed by the magnitude of emotions that are being processed through my mind. I have been experiencing these series of growth periods for some time now. In preparation for something. Something that is beyond me and my understanding. God I give you my day, I give you each and every moment. May you use me to my ultimate capability.

A Fruitful Identity!

Lately life has been passing me by so fast that I have placed my importance on the perishable things in life. I have noticed that I am focussing so much on school and the things that don't really matter in life instead of on Christ. I have given in to the lies that satan is telling me that i can do this on my own when in reality I am not even a seed without God. I am nothing without his stregth and his place in my life. I have realized this because I have been so busy with life and I have been such an awful steward of my time. I know that God wants me to forget the daily grind of things that are not important and focus on him. I want to love Him and bear fruit because of it. Like in John 15:5b "If a man remains in me and I in him He will bear much fruit, apart from me you can do nothing." The Lord is declaring this. I need this verse so much today! I have had such a hard week with school and life in general. I am disappointed with a few of my results from my tests but i know that I will prosper if I just trust in Him and put my focus back to the grind stone. I feel like this plant. Even though I feel like i am roughin' it I am still bearing fruit through it all. i just hope that I can sustain my life and progress to an accomplishment.