Rest

psalms 23 came to me this afternoon as i woke up from my afternoon nap. During the weekdays I have two breaks furing the day from work and they are about an hour long so I take that time to sleep and get rejuvenated. I only slept for a short time today and woke up with psalm 23 on my mind. I am so grateful for My Christian School upbringing to have memorized the first couple of verses of psalm 23. "The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside still waters, he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for His name sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for you are with me, your rod and your staff they comfort me." These verses are like warm blankets fresh out of the dryer, they warm me up to the bone and surround me with themselves. I started thinking about how the Lord is my shepherd and what it means to not want any other leader but Him. Only wanting Him to show me the way, not myself. I have heard the phrase or comparision of us to lambs or sheep. I am truly a lamb, a baby lamb at that. I have no idea where the shepherd is leading us and I am influenced by those who are wiser that me and more experienced. I have an exuberance for life and want to live it to the fullest everyday and I want to make sure that I am playing within the field that my shepherd has laid out for me. I do not want to stray from his plan, do not want to wander away from His teachings. I am learning that whatever comes of these next few weeks is what God has in store for me. I have applied to a nursing school in Nevada, Touro University, and my parents will receive a letter soon with the results of my application. I find myself thinking about getting into the school and what joy and excitement I will have to know that all of my hard work and all that my heart desires will finally pay off and come true. I also find myself knowing what disappointing feelings I will feel if I dont get in.... but then I remind myself that God has me in his hands. If this school is not for me and not where I need to be then I do not want to be there. I do not want to be out of what the Lord has for me. There have been times in my life just recently in the past year that God has had to pick me up and carry me because my heart was growing so much for him that I was having a hard time being around others. What I didn't know was that He was preparing me to overcome a hill that my family had to climb over last year. He picked me up at the bottom of the hill and carried me until He thought I could stand on my own feet. God si so amazing and his heart adn love for me and others is " " there is no word that can define it in my vocabulary right now. It is like standing at the sight of a huge mountain and being in awe of it... speechless. I am so grateful and so encouraged to know that I can rest in Him everyday and trust that he will lead me into green pastures- a peaceful and beautiful place. Find Him today, rest in the truth that "God knows all, Loves all and will protect all of those who love and worship Him."