MOTHERS!

I know that it's mothers day on Sunday and the potential thought of my mom not being here because of cancer scares me. My mom is healthy. She is on her way to becoming a long-term survivor of Breast Cancer. Tonight I cried for the first time in understanding what I have and who my mom is and what she means to me. She is my hero! She is someone who makes a difference. Someone who has taught me more than anyone else in this world. She has made me who I am today by her wisdom, her knowledge, her love and her desire for me to be a woman after God's heart. I could not ask for someone else as a mother.
I was confronted with an emotion today, an emotion that is so hard to look at straight in the face. Sadness...combined with Joy... accompanied by thankfulness. Seeing a cancer patient (sadness) with no hair brings me back to shaving my moms head during her beginning days. That is in itself beautiful, intimate, and difficult. I am so glad that I was the one to be there for her. Having the intimacy of relationship with my mom. I immediately picked up the phone and called my mom. at the very sound of her voice, I had none. I wept beyond all that i have before. My mom always said save my tears for something worth while; well she is worth more than tears, more than thoughts. The blessing of hearing her voice (Combined with Joy) out weighs so much in life. I am so thankful for my mother. I have been so blessed to have her as my mother. She is amazing. There are no words to describe how thankful I am to have her in my life. This mother is the ultimate of mothers. I love her so much that there are not enough tears in the world to measure how much she means to me. Happy Mother's Day to all mothers.